ambered flaws

pray me,
i'm flawed
and now amber-ed
hidden in a thicket
pray me,
there shan't be cause
cause
cause to unbed
and yet you break me
and ask to undo, unlearn
and slowly,
i relinquish me
to form the mold
pray me,
there's need for more
and a moss grows
thick
pray me,
am shades of green
am shades of seething
and truly, my offering
is none more
than simple throbs
no money,
no facade,
simple throbs
pray me,
she misses a beat
she doesn't know
it's never enough
pray me,
she bleeds
cause
cause i'm flawed

implosion

if all your ducks are in a row
you will find the fragments
they tell me
it imploded into a million pieces
and none could find them all
so should we try to piece it
once, twice more
they will have said,
do not bother boy
the pieces are strewn
and none could find them all

In another life..

xoxo,

Privy me

the straight & narrow

i heard a loud 'thud'
When optimism died
since the day
it's been the straight
and narrow
there's just one route
i don't ask questions
and neither should you, me
when they ask
what has come to pass
fury stews
i slip through the cracks
those that existed from
the word - go
fairy-tale
the December princess
is now bleeding.
there is a hopeless shaped
hole in the ground now
they fill it up
but you see the faint outlines
not enough benzine possibly.
a vial of tempestuousness
is mixed into our morning expresso
patience stirs the pot.
my order is up,
"the straight and narrow, please"
why yes,
polity is still expected

treacherous you, defiant me

you scar me deep
you leave me cold
and you repeat yourself over again
time.
call me by any name
give it a few months
your infatuation will now abbreviate it
when you're not looking.
tomorrow a raft
takes sail
slow
and I am on it.
words cannot suffice
treacherous waft.
Figments undo every yesterday
such loss
when the fire burns out
not a shred
but careless specter.
And you repeat yourself?
now three times over?
time.

child, take heed

child,
i would like to dole advice
before a handful of soil
covers me whole
do not trust a man with wafer-thin lips
they are sealed forever
when you are offered everything
do not take it all
you must work for them
or you will end up with a handful
of
nothingness
child,
everything that crashes
does not always burn
do not trust a man who purses his lips
he is fighting off a rage
do not want for what
was never thine
when you have it, it will flee
before a tune is played out
child,
i cannot teach you everything
life will be your shepherd
but i will be your lighthouse
guiding you home
fruit will be in bounty
i hope you elect
the very brightest
but moreover the strongest
child,
love is a friend and fiend
make of it the best you may
lyrics and poetry will only take
you thus far
the rest of the way you must tread
and most of those days,
alone.
child,
be wary

child,
you must carry your cross
and keep faith when all about you
have lost theirs
there is a tree rooted
not far from here
that does not come undone
bury your treasures
beneath its glorious earth
it will defy the laws of
math, science and life

Musings from the October widow

the October widow bemoans
were you not told
why must you stand unarmed
is it me who does not understand you
or you who neglects to infer with me
i believe its all perception
but then again i believed karma too
i was told everything has a grey allotment
my morals are pristine white
my past is pseudo-black
and my thoughts alone
silver-area'd
mapped in my brain
and i offer you now
a sliver
my eyes are a suspect brown forthwith
forgive me my mind lover
yesterday makes me question
today i wished for cows hide
but before i can grow it on
you chide
i see you now
appearance
toned and swelled
both your brains at once
and perhaps
its me
i prep you for the next
i see you off
while i cocoon on