Ambiguous love

She walks around ambivalently,
straying from journey's path.
She strews petals to find her way back
just in case
just in case

She is hoping to find him
while time is still on her side

The days turns dusky
the night brings new light
and the moon reflects brightly off the bald marble

Tired now,
she strays once more
petals combust by morning glare

And in the search
she is led to another..
another eye glistens
another ear listens

Memory weaves an elastic band
and promises outweigh the other.
Come another day.

Just come another day.
She proves to balance her way.

Mystique-less

I can't draw you in
I can't hold your gaze
It will not follow me around
in a crowded place
It won't steer from where
you were before.
And you know who you are

You know who,
you know who you moon over
you know her name
her every curve
her middle name

But I,
I know you
I know I come after
and I
I am willing
I come close
I lift my veil
when required
I am commanded
I'm on no two way street
I can hold your hand
But not your mind's eye

It's me, without lustre,
sans colour
and I stand in the night
on your canvas, deep within
behind the beacon
sending me into almost oblivion

But now and again
down life's corridor
I catch your eye
maybe the spunk in your side

But I'm not one
for glimmery false apparitions
You won't blindside me, love.

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I know what you're thinking, am getting too serious, right?
Bonne journée.
xoxo, Privy Lil' Lotus

Les chansons des rêveurs

your love is an epiphany
a piece de resistance
it borders my being and
fills my cup
you bring the pink
to my cheek
and give faith a new turn
a new hope
and smear me with language, astute

my shadow is filled
with shards of your life
and you piece us whole
and explain the reason
of the almond of my eye,
oh but gently
with a deep voice
a full throated softness

and i am strung
along the equator of your being
and i go missing in the between-s
oh Blake, be amazed
be amazed
bow to my tiger
look in his hand
he alleviates the ghosts
in my unopened boxes
he seems on-reel
and talks me anew
into secret on secret
and shows me a canyon,
deep and vast
where he is me
and he be me

and on the cloudless night
he dares to weave
and points
to stars and has them dance
to french music
that entangles in the vines
and the vines in my heart
yearn for his epiphany,
for his love

but the casket lowers,
the dance of a dream
les chanson du petit,
gifting reality,
his eulogy


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Embracing everyday, I'm never going to stop dreaming.
Sing yourself a chanson du reveur (hope that's correct) to sleep... The tune can come later.
xoxo,

Privy Lil' Lotus

Street lights..

i have this window
three by three
i have to stretch a bit
there is a light
a blinding street light
focusing on me
and the beam above rattles
as the light streams in
and day on day, it is the same
but the night,
the night is always new
i see the window
i see the street light
i see the glint in their eyes
the glint is greedy
the glint is vicious
the glint knows all
the glint sees more

the glint sees me

cannot the love of a woman,
one woman, be enough?


why does love stand the test of posterity?
and questions loom around the rim of my mouth
and my lips form a questioning quiver


the valley is shallow
the bend of shoulders speak
and the flag masts overhead
and power plays two men
and accordions quicken


there is a light at the end of an alley
and none stand neath it
but a tramp whispers verse and
the beggar goes back to his family
and the successful go into the video shop


and while it all means something
it also means nothing
and there lies a frail child
peering into a better life
watching another child
frailer than thee
whiter than thee


and the woman sees all
knows all
and yet tells the man nothing
with a mouth that has said enough

heart, be still - deux

I kneel at the altars of depression
and beg for my self esteem
The windows are closing
the light is throwing narrowing speckles
and the room breathes heavy
I hear a booming voice
I hear my mother
And then the booming again
He says accept, accept
Accept
I'm deafening
the lotus is going under
acceptance was never the game plan
lie low little one
and then awake
open the window
open the door
walk out and trample grass
Happiness is a heavy sunbeam
and truth is heavier


I pack a backpack
I pack
I pack
unsure


I remove the sunbeams
I close the blinds


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Need I say more?
Privy Lil' Lotus

La vie en rose ... Courtesy Edith Piaf (en francais)

Des yeux qui font baisser les miens,
Un rire qui se perd sur sa bouche,
Voilà le portrait sans retouche
De l'homme auquel j'appartiens



Quand il me prend dans ses bras
Il me parle tout bas,Je vois la vie en rose.


 Il me dit des mots d'amour,
Des mots de tous les jours,
Et ça me fait quelque chose.



Il est entré dans mon coeur
Une part de bonheur
Donc je connais la cause.



C'est lui pour moi. Moi pour lui
Dans la vie,
Il me l'a dit, l'a juré pour la vie.



Et dès que je l'aperçois
Mors je sens en moi
Mon coeur qui bat



Des nuits d'amour à plus finir
Un grand bonheur qui prend sa place
Les ennuis les chagrins s'effacentHeureux, heureux à en mourir.


 Quand il me prend dans ses bras
Il me parle tout bas,
Je vois la vie en rose.
Il me dit des mots d'amour,
Des mots de tous les jours,
Et ça me fait quelque chose.
Il est entré dans mon coeur
Une part de bonheur
Dont je connais la cause.



C'est toi pour moi. Moi pour toi
Dans la vie,
Il me l'a dit, l'a juré pour la vie.



Et dès que je l'aperçois
Alors je sens en moi
Mon coeur qui bat


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Love this song...
Just wanted a happy beau song in my head, before I leave to go home tonight... Had always hoped this version would be my wedding song.
xoxo,
La Privy Lil' Lotus